What's Next?

I am in this state of what's next...and it won't seem to go away.

I have been ready for change for so long that I sit and wonder what it is that I am actually waiting for. I feel as if I have been cursed with this capability to do so many things from painting to PR, producing, my project , on air lifestyle expert stuff and so on.

A part of me wishes that i was just good at math and could be a kick ass accountant with one path and one job and do it really well and be quiet and happy and serene. Byt i realize that is not who I am . I am this whole other type of person, whose DNA is made up of a rainbow of options which come with a huge burden as to know what to do with them. It's like a huge puzzle, I have all these pieces and I need to find the exact fit so they all fall into place-- and i have some sense of happiness and comfort. what is that ? what does that puzzle look like and how many times do I have to go to the table to try again before the fit is going to happen?